Out of shape

I am really depressed right now and I need someone to talk to. I just talked to my friend but ended up blaming it all over him. For starters, I have gained a huge amount of weight in the recent past. I fit into none of my dresses from the past. And I don’t want to buy new dresses in anticipation of losing some weight. So every morning, the drill is start searching for something to wear to office. Mostly i settle for the jeans paired with some over-sized long tops( which hide the torn portions) or some loose old dresses stitched in the days I used to be conservative.

If you want to speak in term of numbers, I have gained around 25 kilos of weight in the past 9 years! I was a “healthy” 54 kgs and pretty plump when I was in 12th. Then I joined B.  E and in the first year alone, I lost close to 9 kgs due to workshop and reduced eating. At that time, my dad became anxious and urged me to eat on, because his friends used to ask him whether I was sick.

By the time I passed out of B.  E in 2003,  I had slowly regained the lost weight – I was back at 54kgs. In Bang alore, I binged on kerala rice meals late at night when in a mallu PG. Slowly by 2006 end, I was at 56-57. Come Feb 2007 and something amazing happened in my life. But I started putting on weight at an alarming rate. Credits are due to the appams and pepper chicken from coco nut grove and rice meals with fish from sri devi. By the time I left Company-1, I was at 64. In Company-2, I started attending gym regularly along with a strict diet and I “started looking like a normal girl again” ( instead of a small elephant). Due to work pressure, ( and the whiny, drama queen boss), I started skipping gym and binging on Mess food again – regular rice meals and fish at night.  Now, one year later, I am at 70! I never thought I would hit the 70 mark. I weighed 70 at a local restaurants weighing machine – I thought the scale was broken until I confirmed it on my own bathroom scale.

I might be getting married in another 5-6 months and I desperately want to wear the white gown. Of course, getting a guy itself was a big achievement with my figure. That is a story in itself – some other time. This guy doesn’t seem to be bothered by my increasing weight – though I am not too sure about this, we’ll have to see. So, to conclude, I have to lose weight by March -April time frame. And I don’t even want to imagine how hard its going to be.